It's been forever since I've been here. I had taken a break from Wicca for a while. Looking back now I don't know why. I think I was afraid of being good enough? That is ridiculous thing to have thought. So what if I didn't want to do everything by the book. That is the point of Wicca isn't it? To not do everything by the book. And I think I was afraid of discrimination, Of people not taking me seriously. I find this funny now, looking back, because all my life I never cared what anyone thought and suddenly I'm in college and I DO care about what they think? I think the main problem was that I wasn't practicing my religion for me anymore. And I need to. So now I will slowly start practicing again, as a solitary witch.
In a few months I will have my own apartment and will no longer be restricted to this dorm room and my rituals will be more frequent and I will finally have my own altar. I think that will be a wonderful thing for me in my faith.
The moon is waning now, and I am reminded of all the things in my life
that I must let go of. Everyone in the world are filled with the
negativities in their life. Many obsess over these negative events,
emotions, and people that seem to spread a coat of blackness over their
souls. The moon wanes, and I must learn to let go of my own
negativities.
What
hurts my soul? I guess that would be my own lethargy--I am a very
unmotivated girl. I constantly procrastinate so many things in my life:
assignments, cleaning, and yoga especially. I do this until I end up
not getting anything done at all. This just makes me disgusted with my
self. I feel my soul dirty and filled up with my unmotivation. I need
to change. I need to stop feeling as if getting things done is such a
horrible process and just do it one step at a time, feeling joy in the
undesirable actions.
I also cannot be so afraid to stand up
for myself and speak my mind. I have a communication problem. I'm
afraid that people wont like me if I speak my mind to them or if I ask
them things. I'm always afraid of miscommunication. I even have a
small phobia of ordering pizza! This inhibits me in the world and
creates problems later. Such as when I'm so afraid to ask for time off
from work that I end up not asking until it's too late.
These are the negative things that I want to banish from my life.
Welcome to my page! I have been a follower of the Wiccan Path for about three years now, and I have loved and adored every moment of it.
I have practiced in many different ways now. I am a member of a Correllian Temple, but I usually only attend to celebrate Sabbats with a large group of people and to learn for myself. Most of my practice is Solitary.
Recently, I have stared a Pagan Study Group on my College Campus called "Phases" and I'm excited to see how things evolve.
That is all about me for now. My true personality will come out further as I blog, so stick around if you want to get to know me more!
You scored as Druid Fairy, Your heart belongs to nature. Your green satin hides you in the brush. You influence plants to grow, and you have a special connection to animals.
