It's been forever since I've been here.  I had taken a break from Wicca for a while.  Looking back now I don't know why.  I think I was afraid of being good enough?  That is ridiculous thing to have thought. So what if I didn't want to do everything by the book.  That is the point of Wicca isn't it? To not do everything by the book. And I think I was afraid of discrimination, Of people not taking me seriously.  I find this funny now, looking back, because all my life I never cared what anyone thought and suddenly I'm in college and I DO care about what they think?  I think the main problem was that I wasn't practicing my religion for me anymore.  And I need to.  So now I will slowly start practicing again, as a solitary witch. 

In a few months I will have my own apartment and will no longer be restricted to this dorm room and my rituals will be more frequent and I will finally have my own altar.  I think that will be a wonderful thing for me in my faith.